Diary of a Dreamer

Frustration.

I love her, she loves me but loves him even more. No matter how hard I try to be better than him, no matter how many times he screws up, make use of her, she’ll just blame herself and loves him still. I can never be good enough. No matter what I do, or say, I’m just not good enough for her to choose me over him. How can I not envy him? He has someone I love, to love him no matter what. Yet he makes use of her, take advantage of her love. Fucking jerk. You don’t know how many tears she shed for you. How I was there for her, even though she long for you. Your mistakes, I had to pay for! Whenever she say your name, it kinda hurts. All I can be us just a friend for her. Someone who’ll be there for her. And now, she’s willing to forsake our friendship for you. So you’ll feel like you own her for yourself! Life is so fucking unfair! FML!!! :’(